Monday, March 7th, 2011
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1:41 am
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The distant horn of the passing train lifts me from my foggy half sleep. My mind reels back to a city full of fog and those lazy days of ocean air. I hear your laugh quietly echo through the empty room and my brain, addled by sleep, wonders for a moment if you are actually there. The side of my face feels the warm kiss of the sun and my nose smells the sweet air after the rain. We eat bagels in that corner shop where the workers all know our names, mine is pumpernickel and yours chocolate.
Outside we watch kids play with the wet dog of some a teenager who is skating on his board and spending time with his friends as they smoke cigarettes. I am entranced by the look of the scattered beams of sunlight passing through your hair, making you glow. And I wonder if anyone else sees your beauty like I do.
My one foot awake in the dark and the other stuck in a dream. At last I find myself wondering: What magic can change a cold lonely night of half dreams and train horns into memories of a place I've been but with a woman I have never met? It is so wonderfully real that I don't want it to go, but as the train blows by and my mind shakes off the misremembered sunlight, you slip away.
Just once, I wish you'd stay.
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Tuesday, February 15th, 2011
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3:22 pm
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Sometimes I wish I were a tree. Our world would simply not be as beautiful without them silently kissing the sunlight and being caressed by the wind. Whether they are barren during part of the year, or spend all their days covered in glorious color. They proudly reach to the sky, dreaming of touching the clouds that tease them from above. All the while, watching the world go by in a wonderfully confusing blur of light and sound.
When I was a kid, I used to climb trees. As soon as I could reach the branches of the trees in my yard, I would climb them to the very top and just sit and watch the world go by. Even when I fell out of a tree when I was higher than the second story of my friend Paul's house and was rendered unconscious for a short time - it did not stop my love of trees.
There is nothing quite like feeling the wind roll over the branches around you, to smell the leaves, to feel the bark, and be at peace.
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Thursday, May 27th, 2010
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11:00 am - Wracked Promo
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Saturday, January 23rd, 2010
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7:39 pm
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At the request of a few people Wracked will be available on Kindle within the next few days. That is, barring any problem with the formatting that might need sorting out.
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Tuesday, January 19th, 2010
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2:47 pm - Wracked
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Sunday, November 9th, 2008
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7:52 pm - Shameless promotion
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Things have been a little tight here in LA. Jobs seem hard for me to find - so I decided today to open myself a little Cafe Press shop to see if I can supplement my income a little. So, here is the shameless promotion for said shop:
Great Old Shoppe
It only has one item up there right now. Some of you might recognize it. I am planning on putting more things up there in the future.
Thanks for checking it out!
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Thursday, October 30th, 2008
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4:30 pm - Recognize anyone?
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Monday, June 2nd, 2008
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12:28 am
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I love Lost. I cannot remember a show that ever hit me on every single emotion before. My god the writers/actors/directors/editors/and production people are amazing on this show.
I just felt the need to put this out into the universe.
Also, I saw someone say on the internet "I want a love like Desmond and Penny", couldn't help but think that was romantic and awesome. God I love this show.
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Monday, April 21st, 2008
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9:03 am - Week one
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Completed week one of the job. Learning a lot of things. Many things I thought would be easy proved to be a little more challenging, which is actually good. Not really meeting that many people, as I work in an office and not on a set. Might have to change that with my next job so that I can actually meet more people.
Had my first celebrity sighting yesterday. Was eating at a restaurant and Tom Green was in the next booth over. The Lawrence brothers and family (Joey and Matt) were also having a birthday party for someone there as well. Weird night.
Things out here are VERY expensive. Not just gas. Ugh.
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Tuesday, April 8th, 2008
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3:41 pm
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So, a friend that has lived in LA for years was driving me around this weekend. We drove passed all the famous tourist spots that we could in a short time. I saw some nice things, the rest of the city was not so pretty though.
At one point I turned to him and said "The thing I don't like abut this place is that you can occasionally smell the desperation and broken dreams." He laughed and said that was very poetic. What I didn't say was that I hoped I wouldn't become like the people that reek like that.
Perhaps there is poetry in misery. After all, how many happy poets has the world known?
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Saturday, April 5th, 2008
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10:04 am
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Made it to LA on thursday. Had a really good interview with one studio so far for an internship. Have a few other potential leads out here as well.
Tired of sleeping on other people's couches/air mattresses. I need my own space. Need money. Grah.
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Monday, March 31st, 2008
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5:24 pm - I'm off.
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So, I came back to TN to pick up my car and tonight I start my trek to LA. I will be driving alone so hopefully I don't step out on the other side of the trip more insane than I am already.
Wish me luck!
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Tuesday, March 11th, 2008
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9:28 am
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Ok. It is weird if nearly every morning I have the Eric Clapton song "Wonderful Tonight" in my head? I just find myself humming it and singing it in the shower. I haven't been hearing it on the radio or anything either. It is just there, lingering in my brain.
Seriously, I am so weird.
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Saturday, March 8th, 2008
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10:17 am
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Still trying to find work. Had three separate leads that seemed promising. Only one of them got back with me saying my submission really wasn't what they were looking for. The person who got back with me seemed both condescending and encouraging at the same time. Rather stunned about that. Honestly though - it isn't really even in my chosen field and won't lead me there.
Lately I have had this overwhelming feeling that I need to get out of SF and head to LA. I have called friends that I have that live there, and one set of them even said I could crash on their floor/couch. Seems that about half the people I know in LA are having problems finding work too. So, I am really not sure what to do.
Next weekend I am going to be attending a class about the Voice Over industry. If I like the things I hear, I will probably take further classes while in LA. So, I will update more about that later.
Overall, the flaw that is effecting me most is my complete indecision about what specifically I want to do. I feel that I am strongest in any capacity that allows me to work with talent or story, but I also like being able to look at the big picture. Unfortunately, entry level jobs don't usually let you do either one. I am also a little afraid that I will get turned down because I have too much experience in X. X being either life or office work or owning my own business or whatever. Seems I am in that awkward space between newbie and expert. I hope I can sort that out.
I hate to be such a downer in these posts lately, but I want to share with you guys what is actually going on. I think of all the people I have left in ATL and TN often. I hope that everyone is well and that their struggles of finding work/their place in the world are less than mine.
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Tuesday, February 19th, 2008
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2:54 pm
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Been in SF for a little over 2 weeks now. Much better than being in TN, certainly. I am still having a very frustrating and aggravating time finding work. Of course I have accounts on nearly every job finding site you can imagine (both industry and non), but I find that nearly all the suggestions I get from such sites are all either scams or jobs like I used to have. TO quote Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle "It makes me wanna burn this muthafucker down!"
*sigh*
With my additional time I have started actually doing research on doing Voice Over work. From the time I was a little kid making funny voices to now (still making funny voices) people from all walks of my life have been telling me that I should to them professionally. So, I figure now is as good a time as any. Even if I do find work *grumble* I can still do VO work to supplement my income. The problem is again - getting in. Ugh. Since you are pretty much my support group - if any of you has an idea how I could get started or knows someone who might be willing to talk to me about it I would be very grateful.
I will keep my face to the grindstone. There just has to be something out here for me somewhere.
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Monday, January 28th, 2008
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4:59 pm - Next Stop:
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San Francisco.
As I think I talked about before, my last trip out found that the investors I talked to were not interested in investing in my business plan mostly due to the turn around time and the current economy. All good. I understand. So, since then I have been trying to figure out what my next stop is and have been looking for work.
So far nothing has really emerged as a good career path. Looking from a distance is frustrating, and while I really like my mom living with my parents is sufficating me.
My original plan was to head to NYC and stay with Jen and Diane for a little while but the timing just wasn't right for that. So, I am going out to San Fran again. This time to try and find a job. If things don't work out there I will be heading out to LA. Not really looking forward to LA but it might be an unavoidable step.
So, I will be in SF starting on Feb 2nd. I have no idea how long I will remain there if I cannot find a job.
I will try and write more from out there.
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Thursday, January 3rd, 2008
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9:58 am
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Last night at the Highlander was good fun. Bobafred, Mingaling, and Mtn_Hermit were all there. We had drinks and laughs. Mtn_hermit even gave me a christmas present that he said he meant to send last year. It was a tiny writing journal with storyboard boxes on every page. Very awesome!
Only going to be in Atlanta for a few more days. So if you want to see me, drop me an email or call me.
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Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
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12:48 pm
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Happy New Year everyone! I hope this new year brings happiness and new experiences to everyone.
I am currently in Atlanta. I will be at the highlander on Wed night to see people and share some laughs. If you are in ATL and you wanna see me - please stop by. Probably be there around 7 or so and staying until I get bored or lonely.
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Wednesday, December 5th, 2007
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6:59 pm
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Two updates in one day! ZOMG!
Watched the entire mini series of Tin Man from SciFi channel.
I still think Zooey is cute. Evil hot sorceress who shoots evil flying monkeys from her cleavage: Win.
The rest of the show was kinda corny and a little forced, like you would expect from a SciFi original mini series but it didn't make me want to turn off the tv. Worth watching if you have 6 hours to kill and think either of the 2 statements above are good reason to watch tv.
My god I need a job.
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12:45 pm
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Still no job leads. Lots of news about all entertainment related businesses being affected by the WGA strike. Now even actors are joining the picket lines in support of WGA and some of the board of SAG are threatening that they might strike in the summer when it is time to renew many of their contracts. Yay.
I am learning to loathe online employment applications. The parsing code always seems to butcher my resume information and I don't have any follow up information. So I cannot contact ANYONE about the position. Usually a few days later I get an email saying "We are sorry..." if I get anything at all.
Starting to feel trapped in a world that I escaped 10 years ago. I swear, if I have one more conversation about mormonism I might just explode.
Must find a way to escape. Anyone need a slightly used white boy?
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